I am Seeking You Through Fasting

I am seeking You, Lord.  I need to take off all the impurities of my flesh.  Although I want to live according to Your Word, the handicap of my flesh is always tugging on me.  As I draw closer to You, I realize that I have perfect peace and contentment in You.  I don’t have the flare ups of my flesh to try to distract me.  I am putting my flesh into subjection. 

It’s too bad that I have to have this elevated closeness to You because of fasting and not that it is just there.  I am trying to understand myself.  I figure that I must fast routinely.  If I fail to fast, my flesh begins to flare up.  I feel a closeness to You through my fasting.  This means that if this is what it takes to be close to You, then this is what I must do.  I must never leave Your presence. 

​If it means that I must fast weekly in order to get the outcome, then this is what I’ll do.  I must determine what to do before my flesh is flaring up, wanting to do unholy things, or when my mind wanders away from focusing on You.  I must be in complete control of my flesh.  Give me strength and wisdom to walk the way of Your Word without the encumbrances of the flesh.  I desire to be in Your Will.